I am very sorry...

Susan,

I am sorry that I blasted out this morning. I was too tired and wary
to give any thought to what I said. Furthermore, I forgot that you mentioned that you had to finish off some work by the 21st deadline. I am very sorry.

I will wait until you have completed your work and find some free time. I did not mean to put any extra burden on you, its just that I cant help missing you and want to talk to you very badly every time I see you are around.

I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me and not dub me as a "bayyeh" like you do so often lately. I only wanted to be anything but that. If only you knew how much it hurts me when you say that, I know you would not say it again.

I have asked you more than once to give me a contact number I can talk to you on. I overheard one of your friend's call the other night while you were at home. I dont think this number your friend called on was the same as the office number which you say you cant give to anyone else except the members. Susan, why do you lie to me? I have no reason to believe otherwise, unless you can give me an explanation about it. Perhaps I was only making a fool all this time...I dont know any more Susan.

But I will if you can only explain to me what is going on. I need to know what you are going through. It does not help when you say you're going through a lot and then keep me in the dark and in silence. It simply does not help. Think straight for once and tell me. I may not be able to offer you any help on that matter, but atleast then I would know and feel what you are going through.

I will be online all the time, please do approach me and let me know when you are available...


With Love